melankholia...

I guess there are things a man doesn't tell others...
they just haunt him inside...
this is a dark night in my life...
i cannot sleep...frustrated...sad...
has your heart ever hurt so much you thought it was gonna explode?

and right now i am feeling a pain in the pit of my stomach
and right now i am feeling a pain all over my heart
i was not made for this;
love is for the strong and stupid
i am careless and naive...and misunderstood
a deadly combination.

there is no prize
just nights of lost sleep
just dreams of what could've been
sometimes i am spread too thin
trying to make everyone happy is not easy
especially when no one tries to put a smile on my face
just nights of lost sleep...

In my hallucination
I saw my beautiful flower garden.
In my vertigo, in my dizziness
In my drunken haze
Whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel
And I was the spirit of love
Now I am sober
There is only the hangover
And the memory of love
And only the sorrow